Thursday, December 26, 2013

The Mercy of Christ

"And He will say, ‘Come to me! I have already forgiven thee once.… I have forgiven thee once.… Thy sins which are many are forgiven thee for thou hast loved much.…’ And He will judge and will forgive all, the good and the evil, the wise and the meek.… And when He has done with all of them, then He will summon us. ‘You too come forth,’ He will say, ‘Come forth, ye drunkards, come forth, ye weak ones, come forth, ye children of shame!’ And we shall all come forth, without shame and shall stand before him. And He will say unto us, ‘Ye are swine, made in the Image of the Beast and with his mark; but come ye also!’ And the wise ones and those of understanding will say, ‘Oh Lord, why dost Thou receive these men?’ And He will say, ‘This is why I receive them, oh ye wise, this is why I receive them, oh ye of understanding, that not one of them believed himself to be worthy of this.’ And He will hold out His hands to us and we shall fall down before Him.… and we shall weep … and we shall understand all things!"

-Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment, I:2


  1. Ahh, nothing like the anguished Dostoevsky to cheer me up when I'm feeling sorry for myself!

    I discern the true voices of God because they bring me to tears.

    Thank you and God continue blessing you and guiding you, as you hold up the beacon for us in this dark :)

    Something one of your commentators said made me go look for images of the 'Barque of Peter' and I came across this bit of text that I found helpful today:

    I pray every day for the unity of all Christians.

    All that matters, to me, is Jesus present in the Eucharist, and my own mindfulness of Him. Everything else is just gravy, lumpy or otherwise :)

  2. I love Dostoevsky. I remember being moved to tears when I was younger when I first read The Russian Monk in the Brothers Karamazov and it still affects me that way now. Ever since then I always read at least one of his books every year. Right now its A Raw Youth. God bless you and all who gain strength from your blog.

  3. I just want to let you know I'm sorry if I said things which were uncharitable or stirred up trouble on your blog. I hope you find the way God wants you to go and Jesus will have mercy on all of us.

    1. Hi Rebecca,

      It's ok. I think I know where you are coming from. What you have said about me and to me has hurt very much, but I have chosen to just let you and others who have similar opinions on it all speak without my interjections. Simply put, I have no wish to be anti-anything, it is me trying to follow Christ and to have my life changed, to follow Truth where it leads. Be at peace, all is well. Pray for me. I pray for you too - all is from God:


    2. I've read that text in the past ("It Was From Me"), and wanted to believe it. But apparently, God wants me to live in .... and I don't call that love. The thought occurred to me today, Jesus only healed a handful of people, that means the majority lived in ....!

      I can live in a gutter with absolutely no effort, why even struggle, if it's God's will anyway. If God wanted me to have a good life, He would've provided, as He promised. All I'm seeing is unkept promises and indifferent people who claim to be Christians - supposedly family..

      The only family I've ever known was totally dysfunctional and would just as soon see its members dead than have more people to compete for scarce resources, which is pretty much the attitude of the whole world today.

      How am I supposed to love others like myself, when I pretty much hate myself and the crappy life I've been forced to live?

      Feeding the starving, isn't mercy - it's prolonging their agony.

      Bitter? Yep. Never knew peace, never knew a good home. Must be nice for those who do, must be easy to love God & neighbor when your basic needs are met, having a safe home, having a decent livelihood, etc. As far as saints who overcame extraordinary circumstance, good for them. Doesn't do me much good in this crappy life. Is hell really that much worse than here, that I should sacrifice the life I KNOW, for some unknowable promise of something better after death? If it wasn't for the vice of laziness, I'd probably be another ambitious jerk stepping on people to get MINE to at least enjoy THIS life. As it is, I resign myself to the gutter, if that's God's will for me, cos He sure isn't providing any alternatives. Praying just reminds me how little help I'm getting, from God, from anyone. People don't even want to hear about my problems, I know, shut up bringing everyone down and stop feeling sorry for myself.

    3. I don't mind hearing your problems at all rosc. Praying for you tonight. Hang in there.