|From Orthodox Martyria.|
Today, I was told that this fear is not the fear of a vengeful and punishing God, but a deep and intense fear of being without God in one's life. This is something that I experienced emotionally after having watched a video of Fr. Lazarus El-Anthony (The Last Anchorite), wherein I was hit so very hard with what sin does - it separates us from God. I broke down weeping because something in me was touched by the great realization of Who I had cut myself off from. It was a brief time, but I was singularly impacted by this realization.
So I think it is healthy to approach God with this kind of holy fear - the fear of being without Him in our lives, without His love permeating our daily existence in everything we do, sustaining us and becoming our very life. In doing so, we remind ourselves constantly that our central focus on everything we do in our lives should always be on Christ, so that we will be among those who "endure conflict to the end...and with their whole heart loved God alone and who have freed themselves from all other loves for the world."1 (St. Macarius the Great)
This is the kind of Christian I want to be - one who is so singularly drawn by and into the love of Christ, the Truth, that the very thought of Christ being absent in my life is absolutely unthinkable, that my very existence ceases without Him.
Draw me, Lord, and I will run after Thee.
1 - "Homily V"